My son and his wife are in Southeast Asia and have been travelling for over a year. They want us to visit them. We don’t have an abundance of resources and it would mean taking time off work, besides travel costs. So we’ve held back. They are also talking of moving overseas and if they did then we would want to put our resources towards visiting them sometime after they are settled. We are thinking long term. They don’t get this because, in the moment it would be so nice to see us in person. The idea tugs at my heart too.
But there is a bigger issue at play. I would probably be there in a heartbeat if it wasn’t for my health. I told my husband that I consider the cost to me, health wise, to be higher than the cost to him in terms of any dollar figure. I don’t know what I will face on a long flight and in a strange place without my usual supports and routines which keep me somewhat stable.
Today I was struck by the impact of decisions which only look at the short term. For some people, what I am going to say may be too much honesty.
When I took the vaccine, it was a short-sighted decision. I did it because of the insistence of others, very similar to the way in which I am considering using up meagre resources to travel to see my children. They are insisting. I want to make them happy. I am willing to ignore my health and the toll travel might take.
I was told the vaccine was for my own good and that of those around me. I don’t fault them for that. People, including my family, were convinced of this. Yes, they could have been more open to alternative information and I suppose I might fault them for their lack of openness. They could have shown more regard for the possibility that I may have had valid reasons. This is true.
As a stood waiting in line for my shot, I received an email from a friend listing 30 reasons not to take the vaccine. I felt like the timing was perfect. Like this was from God. I told my husband about the email. He thought it was a distraction. The man in line ahead of us turned and gave me an angry stare.
I did not want to get the vaccine. I had a gut feeling that it was not the right choice for me. However, I made a decision that I was willing to “lay down my life” for my family. I rejected the warning. The only problem is my family were thinking very short term. I was thinking long term. I knew I would have to live with this decision for the rest of my life. I was apprehensive about an irreversible vaccine and what it would do to my body over the years to come.
It turned out that I was one of the ‘one in eight hundred’, as we have now learned, who had a pretty severe reaction. My life has not been the same since. So, in wanting to “prevent COVID-19” in the short term, I’m pretty sure I have shortened my life expectancy. I have been dealing with heart issues, since.
I was not afraid of getting COVID-19 or even of dying. I did not think I would die of COVID-19 and I was willing to take life as it came, even if I did.
I’m virtually sure I’ve had COVID-19 more than once. In fact, I think I had it in January before it was given a name and publicized.
I went for the Polar Bear Swim on January 1st of 2020 and was surrounded for hours by people, as I was on the waterfront. Then a few days later we went to Richmond where the initial outbreaks of COVID-19 in Canada were documented, citing the possibility that locals of this Chinese community had recently been to China over the holidays. I think I might have picked it up from eating a snack that sat in an open display all day long while people coughed and sneezed in the room.
My mother made her decision about the vaccine ‘her own’, unlike me. I caved. Seeing how I am tempted to lay aside my better judgment and travel to Asia, I am reminded of her strength of character to say, “no”. Incidentally, my mother got COVID-19 before there was a vaccine. She survived without any notable side effects. She was in her 80’s at the time. Nobody “killed” her. This lethal illness for which we were all to be injected, lest we die, had little impact on her, but for two-weeks of flu-like symptoms. She has always been pro-vaccine, but for some reason she did not take this particular vaccine.
This week, on Friday, October 20, the first parliamentary “debate” on the subject of “excess deaths”, not due to COVID-19, was held in the UK. Peculiarly, the excess deaths around the world coincide with the timing of the roll out of the vaccine and are higher in developed countries with higher vaccination rates.
After a 25 minute presentation you can watch here, there was a response to the MP Andrew Bridgen, the usual canned response that ignored all that had been said.
Mr. Bridgen had over twenty rejections to requests to speak on this topic in parliament.
The house was virtually empty, missing some six or seven hundred representatives. There were no members of the liberal party present and only about a dozen conservatives showed up as well as two labor party members. But the public gallery was full of citizens. It was in their interest the MP was speaking. One might add he was also speaking on behalf of those who can have no voice because they are part of the “excess” death statistic. I presume those absent MP’s still cling to visions of tin hat conspiracy theorists being behind what was presented, but it is difficult to ignore statistics and actual deaths. What struck me about the response of the Secretary of Health was her complacent remark that of course we would expect deaths among those who took the vaccine because of the high percentage of people vaccinated. She completely ignored the report of unprecedentedly high numbers of young people who are vaccinated dying.
A study, published on January 17, 2023, of “collected blood samples from 16 adolescents or young adults (16-21 years of age) hospitalized for post–SARS-CoV-2 vaccine myocarditis at Massachusetts General for Children or Boston Children’s Hospital for myocarditis” states,
Patients who developed postvaccine myocarditis had persistently elevated free spike protein in circulation, which correlated with evidence of cardiac injury and inflammatory cytokines.
I consider that something of that nature may have happened to me. When I reported my symptoms to my doctor she did not do a through investigation.
I am angry at myself for compromising. I knew better. I thought I was doing something virtuous, yielding for the sake of others. I thought, We will see the result in the long term. Either I will be wrong or they will see that they were wrong.
So I went against my better judgment. Looking back I can see how foolish I was to do so. At the time my level of foolishness was not impressed on my mind. I could not clearly see my duplicity. This is what I am ashamed of now. I have a pattern of giving in to others. When you are told you will be responsible for the deaths of others, you are pretty much cornered into taking the prescribed action. But they lied. This was evil. In turn they said I was evil if I didn’t take the vaccine. It was and still is a big political game.
No, the vaccine was not the only way out of COVID-19, contrary to what we were told. And the disease was publicized as worse than it actually was. Besides that, the spike protein has a patented segment which makes it more transmissible to humans. That, interpreted, means it was man-made in a lab. A patented segment is not part of an evolutionary process of nature. (As you can read in this study which states: This insertion could have occurred by random insertion mutation, recombination or by laboratory insertion. The researchers say the possibility of random insertion is too low to explain the origin of this motif.)
We don’t know which lab it escaped from. Maybe it escaped from the Winnipeg lab and that is the reason Prime Minister Trudeau won’t release any information surrounding the removal by the RCMP of two prominent Chinese scientists from the high security Winnipeg lab in 2019 and having their future access to the lab blocked. Here is an article of interest: 'Wake-up call for Canada': Security experts say case of 2 fired scientists could point to espionage. Here is an excerpt:
In May 2019, the couple shared information and samples of the Ebola and Henipah viruses with the Wuhan Institute of Virology after the Winnipeg lab agreed to send the samples to the Chinese lab.
"I'm not aware of what you mentioned. China and Canada have some scientific co-operation which is quite normal and should not be politicized," said Wang Wenbin in response to questions from CBC News.
Our Prime Minster called an election once the investigation got serious and it looks suspiciously like he tried to throw attention off this scandal. Not a word of information surrounding the firing of Chinese linked to the Chinese military has been released to the public.
The spread of the virus in the vicinity of Wuhan makes Wuhan the more probable site. However, nobody investigated what happened in Winnipeg in terms of hospitalizations for a strange flu-like virus at the time. Notice, I can come up with theories about conspiracies and cover-ups all by myself, as I haven’t heard this one proposed anywhere to date.
So we have a man-made pandemic. A vaccine for this eventuality had been in progress for some years. There was a lot of financial incentive to test the mRNA technology on a massive scale and secure its future use.
This article on vaccine development states,
Traditionally, vaccine development takes more than 10 years122, but the COVID-19 pandemic has demonstrated the urgency for vaccine technologies that are flexible and facilitate rapid development, production and upscaling123.
Having the mRNA technology approved would definitely facilitate this rapid development, so I see an incentive here.
I would like to think that creating a man-made and highly transmissible virus was only for the purpose of manufacturing a vaccine to treat a possible outbreak (if it escaped, accidentally) and that it was never “intended” to be released.
Serious money began to flow into the development of mRNA technology in 2016 and increased dramatically by 2019. Due to the disarray of my files I can’t provide the specific link I was looking for with regard to gain of function research and the military investment in mRNA technology but three things stand out for me. 1) the pandemic preparedness Event 201 that occurred in the fall of 2019 headed up by Bill Gates, the specifics of which were followed pretty closely the next year, especially with regards to control of the media messaging. (More information can be found at the WEF website under, Live Simulation Exercise to Prepare Public and Private Leaders for Pandemic Response.) 2) Shipments of vaccines paid for before the clinical trial results came out. (Of course we have the reassurance here that: one of the key factors of the accelerated development of COVID-19 vaccines was financial risk-taking that was greatly sustained by public funds, namely in Germany, UK and USA. Nonetheless, it should be underlined that despite these financial considerations but also the pandemic-associated emergency, no concession was made on safety.) 3) Vaccine companies being given the assurance they would not be held liable for injuries due to the vaccine. (We are again reassured: The government has confirmed that coronavirus vaccine manufacturers are protected from liability when it comes to issues with their doses — but the feds say this is par-for-the-course and has no bearing on vaccine safety.) Being held liable might make them hesitant.
The “vaccine” is not safe or effective. And now I’m not well enough to travel to see my children. This was not the anticipated outcome.
I can’t blame anyone but myself. I was the adult. I can only hope that I may recover and return to a normal life. I did have hopes of travelling.
So sorry to hear that you were damaged by the vaccine. I, too, gave in to family pressures to get the vaccine when I clearly knew NO ONE could know the effects after 5 years, 10 years, or 50 years in the future.